PumpkinSeed
crap. For like 10 minutes I've been trying to put the Psion keyboard back on it's track....no luck yet. In fact I think I started to make some of the plastic case crack from too much pressure. If it stayed off the track forever, the bouncing keyboard wouldn't bother me too much, except I'm concerned that by doing so, it's subject to get more damage done to it easily. Especially now that it doesn't close properly.
I guess that's sorta how my dad feels about the hood of his car. I shouldn't complaine.
He looked at his car today. (well really yestreday if U wanna be picky) Just keeps saying how I shoulda drove slower & stopped before turning. It's too bad he just removed the insurance that would cover this damage a few weeks ago. Now it looks like repair would run several grand! My dad sure can't wait till me & Dan get rich! i guess we should hurry up with that. I'll have to set that goal soon.
Hmm....how about I start with $1,000 for Feburary? That's doable, even for me! A nice healthy start. That's $1,000 in addition to my job...so that's like
1,484.20 together (Gross income)Sounds like a plan! Well something to base a plan on!
For those who don't know, I have a hard time with goal setting. THUS a VERY HARD time with goal achieving! But the secret is that because I never set a goal, i didnt miss it! See! That way I avoid feeling the sad feelings of not achieving a goal!! And I stay comfortable looking to the future when everything will be ok.
Obviously my future is a result of what I'm doing now, so what I'm doing now has got to change! First step...have a goal for my future. I'm starting with Feb 29th. In atuality I know I'm supposed to start with LONG term goals and work backward but I'm not ready for that. I know I'm doing it wrong, but at least I'm doing it! Do you have a clue how many months I've been without ANY finantial goal? Not good! And the results proove it!
Lets see....goals aren't easily achieveabe unless they are backed by a strong reason to achieve it! Let's see. WHY should I earn $1,000 by Feb 29th???
Hmm...well in the process of earning $1000, I'd also earn points toward going to an all expence paid vacation to a 5 Diamond Resort in Cancoon... But that would mean I need to earn the points in Janurry & Feb. Can I earn 10 points in 10 days?? Well of corse I can...that'd be good!
See how goals work backwards!? Now instead of "earn $1,000", I got "Go to Cancoon with a guest, all expences paid in 2005 by first earning 10 points in 10 days & earning 10 more points in the following 29 days....which would just happen to also make me earn
1,000 or so by Feb 29th."That works!
I don't know much about Cancoon, but I'm VERY into an all expence paid vacation for 2, wherever that is. I guess it'd be nice to try a 5 Diamod resort too! Now I hope Dan also earns his points so he doesn't bug me to be my guest!
Who should I bring? hmm...
What should I eat? Can you get sick from eating Lobster all day & night? mmmmmm! Lobster with hummus! =P
What should I wear??? heh heh
YAY! I set a goal! Now I gotta write it down on post-it notes everywhere, so I keep it in sight & in mind!
Hmm....that reminds me....I got a Term paper due in about 54 hours. I think I'll talk to you later! Gotta go! Bye!
Seed Out!
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12:52pm
heh heh - I can't count.
I just put up a bunch of post-it notes around the house with:
"10 points
10 days
Sat 1/31"
and
"Term Paper
Turs 7 AM"
it's really 12 days, not 10.
I'm still gonna call it "10 points in 10 days" cuz it sounds better than "10 points in 12 days"...and it sounds more urgent. I need things to be urgent or I don't get 'em done.
Or I can simlpy change my goal to Jan 29th. That'd be 10 days!
It's almost 1pm.
g'knight! (o:
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1/20/2004 9:15:36 PM
I can't take it!
I can't take it!
where are my earphones?????
GOOD GRIEF!!!!
I now know what people mean when they refer to their "blood boiling".
This is still new to me. And to think people live with this daily!
Yes folks...I just ran upstairs and put on my earphones with some CD...it doesn't realy matter whiich one.
I can't take it. NOTHING ELSE EVER did this to me!
What's the fuss? The lies! I cant stand lies...being applauded. eech! Is that what it felt like to be a Jew listening to Hitler in Germany????
Yes...My parents are listening to "the state of the Union address", they blast it, and clap along. I can't take it.
Gwetchie, remember what I wrote about using Music as an escape from truely living? Well it's also useful for sanity in times like these!
Maybe I should be listening to Soundgarden's "Blow Up The Outside World" instead? heh heh.
BREATH IN....................BREATHE OUT
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REPEAT.
................Repeat.......
that feels better.
beathe.........breathe
ahhhh.
phew.
This isn't the first time. It's happened a few times...when I seehear him on the TV. I just keep saying "B.S." to myself, and feel like punching a wall or something.
ONLY with G.W.B.! I don't want to hate him. Good Lord, I don't want to hate anybody!
Good Lord help me! Good grief!I don't even know if I hate him. I can't stand him tho, that's for sure!
And I feel guilty....partly cuz I have a hunch he doesn't have a clue how evil & decietfull his words and actions are. For those who don't know, GWB didn't even want to run for president! He's a freakin puppet!
At least he was. I don't know the extent of his autonomy these days.Ow! This music is too loud.
how can you hate an innocent puppet?
They don't even know what they're doing! Just following the puppetmaster as is their nature.I dono
I still have some faith in democracy, 
truth, justice, and all that. Geze. I haven't really been following the presidential candidates that much at all. I can't even say there are any I like....maybe Rev. Sharpton? I'm regesterd as a Republican so, i can't even help with the primaries.
Right now I'm tempted to go along with the lines of the bumper sticker: "Anyone but Bush 2004!"
breathe.....breathe...
do you have any clue how many lives are ruined by the Bush administration?? Can you bear to imagine an additional 4 years of this?. It's sickening!
Heck, even I'm affecteed! It's amazing what you can get away with when you controll the media...without having to use force! The Free Press willingly under controll! sick!
in any coup attempt in the world...one of the first targets is Radio, then TV, etc. There are many reasons I have a passion for radio. it's power to educate the people is one of them. I just took a class (focused on Mass Media) @ FDU called "The Right to Know" I've been wanting to take that class since 1999. It wasn't what I expected. The sadest thing about it was the lack of interest shown by the students...the future reporters, writers, anchors, etc! i don't get it.
At least we still have a free thought in the
Equinox & WFDQ And WBAIPacifica & WFMU ...and Public Access cable channels Just today or yesterday, mom said how it was interesing that she heard more news on the BBC TV News show than from USA TV news. DUH! heh heh. I bet most "americans" don't even know they can get the BBC news here in the states on broadcast TV & Radio.
ahhh...i still hear applause in the background! I need to get my left earphone fixed.
breathe...........breathe
I bet tomorrow's Missleader.org newsletter is gonna be pretty big!
breathe...........breathe
i think Ashcroft may be a bit of a
too, based on an interview I read that questioned why his actions as attorney general are the opposite of his expressed beliefs & opininons.The nation led by puppets? Who's really running this place? It sure aint Congress! And it sure aint "The People".
You guessed it!
Some rich white men. Whoever they are, you just know they're white & rich.Isn't "Rich White Men" the name of Michael Moore's new book? I'll have to listen to that book soon.
I hope people don't hate me when I become a rich white man..........i take that back!
I hope people hate me when I become a rich white man.
I'm going to make a difference in this world. And people who cause change are hated. PERIOD. That's the way it works! I'll get over it.
Martin Luther King Jr , Martin Luthor, Moses, Mahatma Gandhi, Led Zeppelin, The Beatles, Jesus , Abraham Lincoln, Mumia Abu Jamal( 
), Scott Ritter , Michael Moore, all the prophets & apostles, etc. etc.the way I see it, if I'm not making someone upset, I'm more than likely not making a big difference in this world. They'll get over it.
I know there are good things a person can do without getting much or any grief from others....but I guess I'd rather do something bigger....not necesarially better. I aint down-playing the great things people do without getting hate. KEEP IT UP!! IT'S NEEDED!!!
where am I going with this?
Guess my theory needs revising. heh heh.
crap. I'm sleepy, and it's only 12:03AM! And I didnt start workin on my term paper today yet (I did some yesterday!)
oh by the way, since I just payed off my balance @ FDU from last semester, I just got my grades in the mail today! A, A-, B, C+, & an Incomplete! I think that's either the best, or 2nd best set of grades I've had since I started @ FDU! And this was the first semester since I started working my business! Some people feel I wasam taking away from my studies by also working my business. For a time I felt the same thing, but what I found was that it actually helped me with my studies. Weird, huh? Maybe not! It's made me a more diciplined person. It's helped me learn new ways to organize myself better, express myself better, communicate with people better, keep focused better, listen to people better, have a better self image, present mysel better, and even keep my appeance better, etc. I also found the things I've learned in the business, much of it Personal Development, helped me approach some of the topics covered in my classes with a different insight & perspective no one else there expressed. I was able to contribute these different ides to the groups & classes I was in. In the past there was much less that I would contribute. I also give credit to WBAI for that too! I consider listening to WBAI as my 2nd college education. (Free tuition thanks to listener supporters) Someday in the near future I'm going to give back to WBAI so they can continue edutaining myself & others.
Don't have a clue what my INC. will turn into....unless I don't hand in this term paper, then I'll get an F for sure.
speaking of....BYE!!!
.................................4 hours later:
YAWN!
This aint good. I just spent 3 1/2 hours sleeping at this desk instead of Term Papering. I did the same yesterday till about 8am.
OK - I think I'm awake enough now to continue.
BYE!
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6:16am
I hope I never get over the thrill of a good Tripple-sliced Peanut Butter & Jelly sandwich w. milk.....except over the years it's developed into a "Super Chunky Natural Peanut Butter & 100% Fruit Spread on whole wheat w. enriched Vanilla Rice Milk"
LOL
I love it! About a pound of complex carbs, fresh protien & absorbable calcium! =)
FOOOOOOOOD!!! WooHoo!!!
the best part is when it gets small enough to dunk! mmmmmm!!!
fooooooooooooood!
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1/21/2004 10:50:01 AM
01/21/2004 10:50am
Masters of war
retrospectively speaking...
Michael Moore's new book is called "Stupid White Men", NOT "Rich White Men" as I had guessed earlier. (I'm downloading it now)
My flipping out over GWB, briefly stated, is the result of my passions for Truth, The Constitution, Due Process, Justice, and Christ.
I'm confused though. I understand having a burning passion for the above things causes a hatered for Lies deciet, Injustice, disregard of the laws & identity of the USA, and False representations of Christian ethics & biblical truths.
Where I'm confused is my mind is mixing up hate of concepts with the face & voice of a man, who to me represents those concepts which I hate, and also happens to be my representitive as claiming to be my elected, president, and a fellow christian. I understand every pressident has claimed to be a christian, but this dude really wraps the christian flag arround himself as he screws the world over. i'm just hoping people don't get the wrong ideas about Christ & His message by looking at this wako. good grief!
If GWB had any sence of integrety, he would have not accepted being appointed as president by his buddies in the supreme court after clearly loosing the election despite the thousands of voters who were prevented from voting not for him.
the funny thing is, this is politics as usual...I'm just catching on lately, now that it has become so blatant. If they were better liars, I probably would love the guy! heh heh.
good grief!
The only 2 reason I think he has such a high approval rating is: 1. People take what's given to them by the mass media, and dont look for the truth....they think they're given the truth. and 2. aren't approval rating questions YES/NO questions? That's as silly as someone saying "You're either with us or you're with the enemy."! As stated by the lovely Arundati Roy, No one should have to make such a decision. Of corse there's good things GWB has done! Even better things promised & not done! (hint hint) so when someone thinks of those good things, and the lies they've been fed, of corse many will approve!
Almost reminds me of President Husain's 100% YES vote to stay as president. You're either for him or against him...if you're against him, you die. Sound familiar?
good grief! Lookout Bagdad! Branded pre-packged democracy is on the way! "For the people, by the puppets."
Enjoy! Better luck to you!!
12:02pm... 19 hours till Term paper due!
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7:29pm
I'm skipping church tonight to finish up the term paper. That sucks cuz I just learned that the missionettes (kinda like girl scouts) are holding their preleminary singing contest tonight, to see who's gonna go to the state competition....and I'm the sound engeneer (AKA "Sound man")! Normally Pastor Pra could do my job well, but he's away! I hope all goes well. Oh the guilt! I have to stay home listening to MxPx instead. Oh well! I'll get over it!
+) THANKS, ALEX!! (+
I feel bad for you, all these months without your MxPx! Poor thing!
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11:35pm
7 1/2 hours! I'm barely done 1 small section! EEK!
MxPx WILL HELP ME! I WILL HEADBANG & BOP MY TERM PAPER INTO COMPLETION!
EEK!
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crap - keep dozing off. Not good for paper!
bop bop bang bang
"Do your feet hurt?
Did you fall from heaven?
Cause you've been running through my mind all day"
.........
"If you have a brain, and use it too,
you've gotta know I have a crush on you."
heh heh
punk rock pickup lines
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5:02am
ow!
I have several red squares impressed into my forehead. I fell asleep onto this keyboard!
ow!
yeah, I'm going to be safe to drive to school in 1 1/2 hours!
ow!
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6:47am
GOOD MORNIN!
zzzzzzzzz
Off to school as soon as I print out the the three of 5 parts of the term paper i've completed so far!
Lata!
~LuvSeed
Currently Listening to: MxPx's "Life In General" & "Live At The Show" on repeat
Currently Reading: audiobook being downloaded: Michael Moore's Stupid White Men
Currently Watching:
Currently Feeling: zoned out
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enigma_g
yes i do remember that thing you said about music! :)
see you in a few days!