PumpkinSeed
02/13/2004
Man these entries are really piling up in my PDA! I gotta release them more often. It's making it hard to read my blog, and this thing's getting heavy!
Howdy, Professor Quatrone! Thanks for stopping by!
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ok, there's been this weird phenomenon happening lately.
When I talk with people, I feel hesitant to talk about things I've already written about in this blog...even if it's still in my PDA!! I find myself glossing over things, leaving out significant details, or not mentioning things at all...
Like They should know already, or that I'd be telling them twice, wasting their time. That wasn't supposed to happen!! Right?!?!?
I guess I feel it's as if I wrote an email to that person, they should have read it by now, or will read it very soon, and why would I repeat myself, being annoyingly redundant?
But I can't assume anyone's reading this! Even if they have in the past, or said they would! Is this the downfall of the art of conversation?
"I have nothing to say to you...I've already said it...Read it!" (?!?)
I find that scary! I'm fighting hard to be a more social person, opening up to people more, and started this BLog as part of that battle... now my weapon is turning against me???
I have to learn to trust you! Trust you to stop me if you already read what I'm saying. Trust you to skim over the blog where you already heard it.
I can trust you right?
heh heh
So is this my concern over me bothering you with too much of ME? Yeah that's gotta be a healthy outlook!
What, Am I afraid you'll get sick of me or sumthing?
hmmm
Is this just my concern of keeping people visiting my blog?
hmm
I guess I really do care that you keep coming back.
Probably cuz of my own past experiences with blogs. As mentioned previously, I've stopped by a few blogs over the years, and found them for the most part interesting, but not enough to ever come back...or I'd leave with the intention to come back "some day"....only for that day not to show up for years!
So now I got one and don't want it to have the same fate as thousands of others. Hmm
Guess I take it personal! I know better than to take things personal!
No I'm not taking it personal(?)...I just feel bad when any passionate expression made by a human is not heard...or in this case read/viewed!
The book no one read.
The song no one heard
The love no one received
The toy never played with. (think Toy Story & that Rudolph cartoon)
The connection never established.
Like a love letter.....a death sentence pardon.....lost in the mail!
People say "Music is life" I was one of those people! (Smurfling0 was another...I should get in touch with her...been years since we talked!)
But that aint it.
Creating is life! Living.
But a creation is only good if IT lives!
A creation lives by changing perceptions of others!
Eh - my theory could use some revising.
I admit it's a little bit of a mish-mash, but I think U get my drift...sorta.
The human soul...unique in its ability to create. Words & art, etc...becoming an extension of that human...which can live on after they've passed over. But it in itself is lifeless until it's observed by someone else...where that original thought created is transmitted to another living human, making an impact...living on.
That's better.
heh heh heh
so yeah. the way I see it there are thousands of lifeless blogs.
Just like all the books never published.ok now I'm repeating myself.
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lately I'm learning to appreciate the "other people" better. The "THEM"
For many years, I saw people as drones.
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I still think there is some truth to that but that's only cuz I know few...if any people don't live life to their potential. (I guess that'd only be Jesus) Most people repress so much of themselves, disguising themselves as drones.
But regardless of that, they’re all like me. Exactly like me.
In fact I'm one of them!
Even now as I type thins, I feel like I'm lying.
But I know I'm not lying...anymore. Every one of us is exactly unique, and a living creation not needing to be stereotyped, but loved.
and appreciated.
Just for being them...not "one of them"
After all, I was just as wrongly classified! Yes, this unique Seed was, and still is classified as someone else’s "THEM"!!
YECH! I HATE THAT! I'm not one of THEM... I'M ME! I'm as unique as.....YOU!.........and THEM!
Get it?
I'm starting to.
Interestingly, this Blog goes right along with 2 opinion pieces in yesterday's Equinox by Kelly Kramer & Dorota Dolata. (Equinox Editor & SGA President respectively)
heh heh. Never noticed before how both their names have an interesting look & sound to them!
So yeah, now I'm starting to understand how God can infinitely love everyone
...and how he expects us to try to do the same.Just starting to.
If only I could do my homework as well as I can blog!?!
oh wait -I can! =)
~LuvSeed
Currently Listening to: Pink Floyd: The Dark Side Of The Moon's Us And Them
Currently Reading: Song #2: Bad Religion's Them and Us
Currently Watching:
Currently Feeling: open
Whadduya feelin?
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