PumpkinSeed
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
got my new portable computer thingie machine!
more bloging!!! on the go!
5:20am
so much I wanna say....type....
but I really gotta get some sleep nowish
I miss you too!
gnight!
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7:10pm
heh heh
aww
8:58pm - woops! got a lil distracted from this....
as I was saying,
aww - how cute! I need to get me my own digital camera...right now I could be showing ya a pic of the squirrel that was just going on and in the garbage can.
and before that, the bird I saw flying - that woulda been a great shot! Had a perfect angle!
oh well
yeah, so right now, I'm at FDU, in the S.U.B. Earlier, Mr. English & his Bro came by...then Roberto. Good seein them.
So as I was mentioning beofore, YAY - got me another SUPER PDA thingamajig. I'm not sure what to call it. I feel I can't really call it a PDA. It's just too...diffferent.
It aint a laptop...aint a palmtop...aint quite a mini-notebook or sub-notebook...aint no pocket pc...sure aint a desktop pc...no, it's not a Tablet PC either....it's not super unique either: there are a few SIMILAR things out there by Compaq, and I think Sharp, and even ericsson.
It's a NETBOOK PRO!! YAY! Made by Psion Teklogix. Only don't like 2 things about it...
1. it's about 3x bigger than I expected when I ordered it (yes from eBay of coarse)
2. it's got Microsoft Windows CE.net as the OS & Microsoft software....
I’m not VERY anti-Microsoft...I just don't like it when my scheduler program crashes and stuff like that.
as for the size....woops! yeah, how does someone spend
on a portable comptermajig, and not know how big it is? Well I read somewhere a review on it, and the reviewer said how it was only slightly larger than the 5mx (what I've been using) blah blah blah, I thought it was the same size, just 1" wider, yet magically with a larger screen at twice the resolution! Those amazing folks at Psion know how to work magic!!.... So I never really paid attention when I read the actual dimensions. If I knew it was this big, I don't know if I’d have bought it...I know I’d look into some other options, like Sony’s mini-notebooks, or a tablet pc.
It's still a great machine (should I call it a machine even though it has no moving parts besides the keyboard, buttons, and a hinge??) Just wish it was small enough to take EVERYWHERE safely...sorta like a PDA.
well yes - this marks the end of a time of disarray, disorder, and blind bloging, since the death of my Psion 5mx's screen. (How long has it been???) No longer must I depend on a loose-leaf sheet of paper as my weekly planner! ONCE AGAIN I will CLEARLY see a complete dynamically updating list of things I didn't do...yet!!! =) Also this means (hopefully) back to more journaling (intuition, dream, and Blog) and reading my own notes!...and having a contact log for my business..and....and it's 9:27pm.
ok - that's enuff for now....got some priority thingies to get done now....says so right in "Pumpkin Seed is On-Schedule 8-P"!
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10:55pm
heh heh
just scarfed down like a pound and a half of burritos! YAY TACO BELL!!!
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2004-06-18
BING!
It is now permitted to use portable electronic devices on this flight
11:40pm - yay!
flyin out to CANADA!
:maple: heh heh
What A day!
about a week and a day ago, bought a round trip reservation with
Bus lines to get to Ottawa, Ontario, Canada for an amazing $122....and an additional investment of about 26 hours travel time. GREAT! So Thursday night, during the heavy downpour, I get driven to the magnificent Newark Bus Terminal by the lovely Rebecca! As I run in, some dude is smiling at me, cheering me on. A few minutes lata, he asked me for some for some grub. Instead I give him 2 
I had stored in my shoe (yes they were in a bag) - that was cool - helpin a hungry dude get a smile and some nourishment. Before long, I meet this other dude, Robert. We talk about stuff for a while - blah blah - then we're off on the first bus to NYC, Penn Station. On the way, me and Robert are talking up a Desert Storm...but he becomes less and less coherent - apparently the vodka was starting to get to him. Before we got to NYC, we had developed a nice comrodery, and we decide to keep in touch. Cool! Now I got a place I'm welcome to stay at in Florida! But now I'm concerned He might not even make there! The longer the time passes, the less he knows or cares where he's going or how to get there. We manage through the terminal, and eventually find out where we each gotta transfer to. He tells me that he bets I'll never call him on the phone. I say I'll call ´round Tuesday. This looks like goodbye!
Well - apparently not yet.
so he's wasted - I'm wide awake
he needs food - I get him 2
YUM!he wants...needs a coffee - but I don’t wanna spend $1.50 on one.
"At this time we ask that you turn off all electronic devices"
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June 21st, 8:01am
yay
YAWN!!!!!!
so as me wuz sayin´,
YAWN!!!!
`scuse me!
dang - too early to type!
anyway,
so yeah - I got the dude a coffee for $1.51, and when I find him, he's being taken care of by 2 young girls - prolly teenagers - that was an interesting sight - they were helping him add sugar and cream to his coffee, and keep it from spilling on their luggage. Great! Now I don’t have to worry bout him! Like a half hour later, I see him stammering around asking me where his bus leaves from - he went the bathroom, and now is lost. I told him which way to go....then a minute later go to see if he found it....I didn't see him....next day or so, I give a call from the airport, and his relative said he didn't arrive. eh - Just hope he's ok. I'll give a call later. YAY VODKA!
wow- never seen anything like this: Since getting out of the Lincoln Tunnel coming outta NYC to Joizey, the oncoming lane to our left is filled entirely of busses heading to NY Never seen that many busses going anywhere - never even seen that many busses at a bus station! Surely over 100. Think most are coming of the NJ Turnpike.
So yeah - in case ya didn't notice, I mentioned an airport. Why would I mention an Airport if I said I was taking Busses?
Glad you asked!
Round 11pm, I find out I need to meet ID requirements to get outta The States into the land flowing with Maple Syrup! Only "VALID" ID I had on me was my Joizey License...apparently useless without a certified birth certificate or a Baptismal record, or sumthin.
So I make a buncha phone calls: My brother,
USA, Canada, American Airlines, US dept of Immigration Services, 411, Amtrak, Continental, United Airlines, etc., and my brother meets me with my Birth Certificate @ the Port Authority...or is it Penn Station? Well where I was at. All the airlines I've seen so far cost around $540. I decide I gotta find another way to get to Canada so I won't be late for the Seminar (6:45pm) We talk, and I make more phone calls - Continental, United Airlines - we decide to go home. On the way we figure they best option may just be to drive to Canada! We can do it together! I look online @ Expedia.com, Dollar.com, call Dollar Rent-A-Car - and take a lil nap. Wake about 5 hours later, and mum sayz we're not allowed to drive to Canada with our car, or with a rental. mum then encourages me to either not go, or I'm really committed to this, to take a plane. Call US Airlines, Air Canada...then ...one of the service agents mentioned the price for flying from LaGuardia Airportin NY! Oh! It's about $200 cheaper! Ok - that's not so bad! So I call Continental, United, and US Airlines, etc - and settle for US Airlines. Still over $300 for a 1-way ticket (yes I forgot to check http://JetsGo.net for prices closer to $110. - WOOPS! Thanx, Raj!)So Great! I'm all set to go! My bro drives me to NY, and after some scrutiny by Dept of homeland Security (I was "flagged" to be screened because I bought a one way ticket the "last minute" before a flight)...then I'm off.....to the terminal....then after some Delay Delay Delay, I'm off!!!!
=) .........to Pennsylvania!....and I miss the connecting flight to Ottawa Canada. WOOPS!
Call Dan, then run to get info from US Airlines as to what my options are. Rather than just wait on the line, I start calling United....I'm on hold for a while, and think that's a silly way to spend my cell phone minutes, considering I'm AT US Airlines, so I then call Continental, Air Canada, and United Airlines to see what plains they got going to Ottawa - nothing earlier than what US Airlines was now offering - arrivals near 11pm Seminar is supposed to end @ Midnight or earlier. CRAP! Call Duncan, Duncan, and
...Should I go on? Should I Head back home? I'm gonna miss 1 of 2 days! (well 1 of 6: 2 more days to come in July, and 2 in August)Now I'm upset - not about the delays, not about the waiting, not about the $$$, not about being tired, not about nuthin....except that I missing out on the
seminar, the people in it, and the others in the seminar are missing out on me!!grr!
woof!
I missed some significant stuff!! They had me try to catch up with the class, but it's not nearly the same. grr!
so...
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Thursday, June 24th 10:43am
I miss typing my BLog entries while on the toilet! YAY! Great to be back!
wow- 10:44am - maybe I should go to sleep soon!
Just spent a while @ the computer - went there to do 2 things - did one. 50% - not bad!
Wound up reading through my emails a bit, and skimming through my "Friends" entries on Tabulas.
I miss ya's!
So good to read ya's again! Not all of ya post, entries much anymore - What are ya trying to pull? Trying to make me forget you? Well...it aint gonna work! Perhaps for a time, but not forever!
My last entry...well I still didn't finish it yet - but I enjoy typing it - I like to share my stories...but at the same time I feel like it's a task - something I gotta get over with so I can resume talking from my
.hmm.
This week has been interesting. Starting to feel again.
Seems like I took a few weeks off from feeling. And I don't even have a job! (or an internship - woops!)
I mean I feel a little here and there - I mean REALLY FEEL.
ya know - the big ones - LOVE and PAIN.
2 easy
Mom: “Andrew! What are you doing?”
Seed: “Journaling!”
Mom: “You're journaling you're life away!"
heh heh
that was followed up by a phone being handed to me.
Sgt. Vandyke was following up with me from when I sent away for a free CD-ROM from the US Army....in 1999 or so. (I used that CD case my first year DJ’ing @ WFDQ)
He’s pretty skilled at creating conversation - ya know - to lower my defenses....talking about my life and occupation and education to get a sense of which job positions he should mention. Explaining how the army is comprised from allllll kindsa jobs. He thought I may be interested in being a chaplain or chaplain assistant. nice try.
Well he was curious if I knew anyone, perhaps in the area who would be interested in the Army. He asked that I pass on his Name & Number.....so here it is! Sgt. Vandyke 877-244-7060
All you U.S.A. lovers feelin that call to duty - now you know who to call!
...Great - now mom just opened the door to get the phone back.
Can’t a man journal on the toilet in peace? where was I? ahh yes - everyone’s 2 favourite topix: Feeling Love & Pain!
I found out pretty early that I could grow accustomed to physical pain enough so it doesn’t hurt anymore. I later learned how I suppressed emotional pain.
never imagined I could grow immune to feeling love! I think that’s sorta what happened!?
ouch!
I began to love so much....then all of a sudden...I didn’t feel it anymore...again.
I never really felt love much. I knew it... I had faith in it. I had a beliefknowledgefaith that I was always loved. I believed I loved....I must have!
but feel it? Why bother?
get a mushy and touchy and choked up, and emotional ....who needs that stuff? I’m loved, and I love - that’s more than enough for me!
well that’s what I thought.
man - what was I missin!
good grief!
then in 1996 I felt it - I felt it hard! NICE!
I mean I felt it here and there for friends...but this time - WOW! Good stuff....made me....VOUNERABLE! And before I knew it - WHAM! My 1st
!heh heh - I look back at it now with a fondness. I’m glad I can say that. Those were good times. I miss you. I miss....feeling.
blah blah blah
June 2003...I begin to feel again. can you believe that? about 9 years out of the game?
good grief! Again folks, I’m talking about REALLY feelin ‘em! I had a taste in 1998 - that was ok.
Can you imagine WONDERING if you love someone? Gee I guess I do.
Good freakin’ grief!
grr!!!
hmm- gee - that sucks - that would hurt most people!
HELLO ANDREW!!! WHAT’S WRONG BRO! WHY don’t U FEEL??
2003.
What an AMAZING YEAR for me. IN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY WAYS! Don’t wanna list em here now. Guess they can be summarized by “PRAISE GOD!!!!”
Man, I love that dude!
Always thought I did....began to question it! Imagine that! Questioning if I Loved my Lover! If I loved MR. LOVE!
. ..... .......... ............... .................... ......................... .............................. Where did I go wrong? I never needed this before! I need a woman to help me feel! Currently Listening to: +LivE+ - Ghost
Currently Reading: Psion Netbook Pro
Currently Watching:
Currently Feeling: cold foot
Whadduya feelin?
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