PumpkinSeed
17% Battery Life....10 hours till I get to the charger.
I...I don't want to look at you.
I don't want to even ...EVER hear your voice....
I dont want to know your political views
I dont want to know your physical/mental/emotional "imperfections"
...though, I would actually like to know your spiritual imperfections!
I dont want to know your your nationality
your ethnicity
your parents & siblings
your age
your marital status
if you have a boyfriend
if your a virgin
I dont want to know....what you think about me,
I dont want to know how busy you are
what your job is....unless it's your passion....or your pain.
I dont want to know your "history". I don't want to know your decisions...your mistakes...your lucky moments...and I sure don't want to know of anything "good" that you did!!
dont want to know your "bad" either - hell no! (you dont want to know mine either....right???)
I dont want to know that your hobbies...your financial status, your style of clothing, your favourite music, or book....yet.
I want to know my love is real.
I'm afraid to judge you.
I want to know you.
YOU! YES YOU! Y. O. U., YOU!
because when I know YOU....there's no way on earth that I could possibly judge you....and not accept you.
When I know YOU, I can't help but to love you.
I already do.
I'm afraid of anything getting in the way of that love.
the stuff
the distractions
the things so easy to like and dislike....the things I may falsly associate to mean or reflect YOU.
I sure dont want to be physically attracted to you............yet.
That's right - I dont even want to like you!!!!!!!!
If I like you...I might just idealize you...dream about you, and wish for you, and make you into this perfect.....imagination.....a fake...love.
I'd miss out on
you.
loving you.
11% 4:44am....
you're worth it. even if my battery never charged again!
YES YOU!
10%
9%
I'm afraid...
to go back.
to where I saw you as __ or __.
when I thought you ____.
when I heard you, but never listened.
when I labeled you as______.....one of THEM.
when I ignored you.
when I lusted after you.
when I thought you were one of the clones....a drone.
when I thought you didn't feel.
when I thought you didn't matter.
when I thought you were better than me
when I thought I was better than you.
when I envied you.
when I pittied you.
when I dismissed you.
when I obsessed over you.
when I couldn't get enough of what I thought was you.
when I disrespected you.
when I hated you.
when I labeled you as THE ONE....
afraid to go back to before I knew you.
7%
6%
I'm sorry I didn't trust you.
I'm more sorry I still don't...
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5% 5:24am
I'm sorry I was able to read your entry without letting mysself feel it. I want to.
to visit
to understand
I want to understand you, and what you felt....so that I can genuinely say "I undestand you", and you can take comfort in that reassurance that wow - someone understands me!
4%
there's more....
I love you.
I better sign online and post this before there's no juice left.
I accept you.
i'm at my granny's house now. got sorta stranded here. but it's all good.
too good.
I respect you.
I might even get a few hours sleep.
I miss you.
3%
signing on now. feeling surprisngly awake.
I feel you.
Copying...pasting....
I see you.
2%
adding final touches
I thank you.
Currently Listening to: Pearl Jam's "In Hiding"
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