PumpkinSeed
9:59am
I feel like a bum - a happy bum
YAWN!!well maybe just a hobo
I'm just waking up, finishing my dream journal entry....sitting in my (dad's) car...still @ FDU
had to crack open the windows like an hour ago or I'd be like a dog in heat
I dozed off for a whle on the bench - sitting in a position so it would look like I was reading instead of sleeping... so I'd avoid any trouble.
Decided to head to the car where it's more comfy - and less bugs
It's so good not to be home.
I feel so much better
clearer
more - um - responsible?
yeah - alone...but I get more done, and I call more people so that's good
when I'm outta the house I can read - I can make calls, and hand things out, and ....sleep
and eat better
enjoy nature
I feel more at peace
...this Netbook Pro is amazing - I still have 32% battery life!!
I'm so glad I didn't get a laptop with like 2 hours battery life.
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I felt I was living near my peak back in May
where every day I forced myself to get out of the house by 12:30pm - even if I had nothing to do in particular outside - just get out! get out of the freakin house!
man that was great!
of corse nothing got done in the house
I wasn't helping my family, or doing chores....or painiting my room
BUT I got so much other stuff done, and established and strengthened other friendships....ran up my cell phone minutes =)
hung out
takled
drove
journaled
did homework!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
read chapters of books
read a lil of the Bible
Ate out @ The Coach house & taco Bell
Ate lotsa pizza and Calzones @ Jeepers
hung out with WFDQ crew.
sleeping wherever....whenever
dodging Public Safety Ossifers
then school got out, and WHAM, I let myself get trapped home again
There should be a balance.
it's good to be out again.
...........
I wonder what it will be like when I have a girlfriend.
sometimes I think my lifestlye, wouldn't allow for one......well
I guess something would have to change. Some sacrifice.
besides $.
would it really be a sacrifice? perhaps just an exchange...just doing something...............different.
well - thre's one way to find out!
yeah - I'm sorta afraid to try it. Also afraid of gettin married a little bit....
I know it can be super awesome....but...i look at those who are in that binding relationship, and who don't stay humble, loving, respectful, accepting, and feeling of each other, AND THEMSELVES.... and I see the crap they put each other and themselves through....and I dont ever want any part of something like that.
I also know it doesn't have to be that way.
I have to trust myelf....that I'll never be that way, and that I'll hold strong untill I find a woman who is the same in those regards.
with Christ in the center of corse.
I guess I need to trust Him, and quit my worrying....excuses, and give it a shot.
He's got my back.
Currently Listening to: REM-2001-05-18-MTV Unplugged 2-05-Daysleeper.mp3
Currently Reading: This book of dreams belongs to...
Currently Watching:
Currently Feeling: dreamy
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AnnDotCom
i need to stop worrying too!! :P
PumpkinSeed
Keeps everything else in perspective.
when a couple does that? 2 people TOGETHER doing that?
I can\'t imagine!
but I look forward to it :boys: