August 31, 2004 , 11:20 AM

PumpkinSeed

ooo! 2004-08-31, 2's Day
12:40pm


ooo! One Got out!




been spending the past few hours here, seeing a buncha caterpilliars, but I just saw the first butterfly flutter by!!!

speakin of caterpilliars, one is now mozying along next to me on this bench....almost stepped on one earlier as I was tapping my foot to a Sara Groves MP3

aww - now there's a grasshopper night next to me on the bench....hope he dont jump in my face.

cute- now the caterpilliar is going the opposite direction.

wonder if I'll be bringing some "friends" along with me in my pants or PPL bag. ...imagining grasshoppers in the PPL meeting tonight



yeah- I got bugs all over me - lil nats, and flys, and things I dont recognize.

I feel pretty safe...I'm pretty locked down - got long pants, tall socks, long-sleeve shirt with all the buttons buttoned...and even wearing a tie! I'm sure some can sneak in, but they got a small challenge

I'm in Lyndhurst - by the "New Jersey Medowlands Commission" building. It's like a preservation or a park here - first time I'm visiting it - I'm sure I'll be back more..

I like it here - I came here after leaving the B.N.I. meeting. I had wanted a place where I can sit outside & finish typing up my homework email of a plan of action for my business. how long has it been? Less than 3 hours I think....DIDN'T ADD ONE WORD to the mail

Sunday was to be the last day of being distracted.

nope!

sigh. +)

sure nice here....even before I got here I had been thinkin...this would be a nice place to just walk around with you and talk, and enjoy...life.

I'm enjoyin life without you here....but....how much more would it be?

I don't want to just read you anymore.

call me greedy...for wanting to share.


last night I did no better.

For the first time, I parked by the tennis courts, blasting Jewel's Album, SPIRIT as I ate ...then walked arround....then sat in the car to finish my email....but didn't

I found myself....distracted

by you, and by her lyrics

some of em. - I still dont understand much of them, but check these lines out:...


Blue, is that you...

there's no more room inside this heart of mine

I must have you all to myself
feel the full weight of your skin
I'll hollow out my insides to place you in.

Stranger enter from the east
stranger step inside this place
oh
and hold me.....hold me.


I had type em up when i noticed em. wow. Well actually only the one line got me, but the rest is ok.

then as I thought I was about to get to my email, I had to type these lines too:



loving someone else is always so much easier
but I hold myself hostage in the mirror

if you could hear the voice in my heart, it woud tell you
I'm tired of feeling this way.

God, won't you please hold me
release me, show me the meaning of mercy, let me loose ...

FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!
LET ME FLYYYYYYYYYY!!
Let me fly.

and I won't be held down
I wont be held back
I will lead with my faith


eh - not bad. ........actually I feel like erasing it now.....I don't feel so impressed by em anymore...I mean...It's still good, and some stuff I can relate with, and love to sing along with....but in writing....it just seems so lame...

...cuz all I can do is think how much more powerful your poetry is. It don't compare.

It's like trying to appreciate a yummy lil M&M when you're just 2 bites into a KING SIZE Snickers

Ya still love the yummy lil M&M, but..........








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