PumpkinSeed
brought me back my fantacy
one more realization of what I've been missing
one more rememberance of what's possible.
VIDA!
I forgot...it was possible to ....
to be
held.
the joy i see in other relationshps...
it's possible for me!!!
I look at yer smile...with him.
and I see you en vida!
I look at your reflection
and I see the beauty I've been missing for 10 years...
la vida.
I've had hopes and dreams, and beliefs of the future...with no vision.
no vision........................................no passion.
no passion............................no drive
no drive...............no action
no action....no vida.
I love you.
I am indebted to you more and more each day.
just for being who you are.
but you went beyond that.
and bit by bit you lived who you are...you expressed love.
heck, you've expressed all kindsa stuff.
you let me see.
a glipse of you
I don't know what He has for our future.
but for now
Your love is helping me get the courage that I need to live.
you are my teacher.
I feel you.
I don't know you
but you saw me.
I felt it.
I feel it.
but again you went beyond.
I am and will be forever humbled.
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how many times will I wake up?
how many layers are there?
how can it be I've had so many "awakenings" in less than 6 weeks?
How asleep can a living human-being be?
I PRAISE YOU, LORD!!
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I feel so hugged the past few days.
by so many people.
and my mum & Kari were the only ones who actually gave me a real one!
well...besides a few self-hugs...thanx Arlene
Thank you, Aleea!!
Thank you, mum.
Thank you, Kari.
Thank you, Andrew.
Thank you, Clarisse.
Thank you, Pavla.
Thank you, Maggie.
Thank you, Jesus.
Thank you, Scott.
Thank you, Granny D.
Thank you, LuvJen.
Thank you, Chris.
Thank you, Jennifer.
Thank you, Jacque.
Thanx, dad!
Thanx, dan.
Tannx, Unca Jim!
Thank you, to everyone who really cares about me...and had the guts to show it in one way or another.
I know I'm missing some.
some I forgot
some that I didn't accept.
many who were just out of touch, but I'm sure thought of me.
and I'm sure, many I just didn't feel
There are those who care...but don't show it in a way that I'd notice it....or find it difficult to believe, accept, or feel.
sometimes it's shown in a way that I find annoying...distancing....even hurtful!!
and dang, then there are those too busy to show they care.
those who don't let it be important enough to show, or who are too embarrased....afraid of silly crap to show they care. That's my tendancy, and it sucks to think anyone else has that too!
I sure owe a lotta people a lotta hugs!
What a shame.
There are those who don't even realize they care!
Then perhaps worst of all....those who deny it!
I can't hold it against them, but DANG, they're sure missing out! Missing out on giving & recieving luv.
Didn't mean to let this entry go into this topic....but what's being held without hugs and caring? I don't want that.
***HUGS!!***
~LuvSeed
Currently Listening to: Son By Four - A Puro Dolor (Bachata & Spanglish)
Currently Reading: Still in Mark.
Currently Watching:
Currently Feeling: a spark of passion.
Whadduya feelin?
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