September 21, 2004 , 11:21 PM

PumpkinSeed

irrisponsible? 2004-09-15, 2's day
5:26am, 9:35am, 2:40pm

hmm...


I spent a lot of time re-reading my tabulas.
I coulda spent that time reading yours!

I spent a lot of time thinking what to say.
I coulda spent that time speaking from my heart.

I spent a lot of time watching you.
I coulda spent that time with you.

I spent a lot of time listening to music.
I coulda spent that time creating music.

I spent a lot of time journaling.
I coulda spent that time living.

I spent a lot of time listening.
I coulda spent that time sharing.

I spent a lot of my life dreaming.
I coulda been living my dreams.

I spent a lot of time pre-judging you.
I coulda spent that time trusting you.

I spend a lot of time singing to my car.
Can I spend that time singing to you?

I spent a lot of time schedueling.
I coulda spent that time doing.

I spent a LOT of time taking pleasure in the fake.
I coulda spent that time getting to know the real you.

I spent most my life comfortably numb.
I missed out on feeling.

I spent a lot of time admiring traits of my heros.
I now spend that time bringing those traits out in myself.

I spent a lot of time believing my faith.
I coulda spent that time trusting & obeying.

I spent a lot of time home...alone.
I coulda spent that time....well, ANYWHERE, and with ANYONE...doing ANYTHING...LIVING!!

I spent a lot of time thinking of, and missing you.
I coulda spent that time reaching out to you.

I spent a lot of time thinking no-one understands.
I coulda spent that time telling you who I am.

I spent a lot of my mind judging you...ruling you out...rejecting you.
I coulda used my heart to see you...the real you.

I spent a lot of time.
I coulda SAVED a lot of time.

I spent a lot of time.
I coulda GIVEN that time

I spent a lot of time.
I coulda USED that time

I spent a lot of time waiting for someone to guide me.
I coulda spent that time seeking out mentors.

I spent a lot of energy to stay in the shadows...keeping myself alone.
I coulda spent that time ...caring for you...supportnig you...encouraging you...loving you.




I spent a lot of time in fear and protection.
I now live for love and growth.





Any you can think of that I missed??
~LuvSeed
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