PumpkinSeed
pumpkinseed17: I mean - I wish U didn't delete it
toxikaith: because?
pumpkinseed17: I have this thing against deleting journal entries
*SNIP*
pumpkinseed17: my friend, deleted her whole tab
pumpkinseed17: said it was the best way to vent after an arguemnt or fight
pumpkinseed17: I see it as a way to try to erase the past instead of dealing with it
pumpkinseed17: (neither is accomplished)
*SNIP*
toxikaith: i agree woth you...
toxikaith: but it could be her way of dealing with things...
toxikaith: i mean, we have different view on things
pumpkinseed17: yea...
toxikaith: only she would know the effect and the reason behind her action
pumpkinseed17: just I'm concerned for her that she just sometimes ignores problems, and says all is ok when it aint, and nothing gets worked out
pumpkinseed17: but that's just an assumtion
pumpkinseed17: (i make lots of assumtions)
toxikaith: denial....freud's defense mechanisms....
*SNIP*
pumpkinseed17: ya mean with his cocain addiction?
toxikaith: nope...
toxikaith: i mean that sigmund freud has these types of defense mechanism we study in school...
pumpkinseed17: I'm a psyc major, and never really studied freud
toxikaith: and one of which is denial..
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pumpkinseed17: I'm a lil uncomfy with my last entry...
pumpkinseed17: not used to being so open...especially when mentioning others
*SNIP*
toxikaith: i think i came across something in your post...but im not sure if i got it right
pumpkinseed17: ***trying to think just WHAT my simple message was***
pumpkinseed17:
toxikaith: i see stuff in your post
toxikaith: you love cai
toxikaith: she changed you
toxikaith: you're slowly liberated from the darkness you built for yourself because of her love...of your love
toxikaith: and it talks about how one should be changed by learning to love onself..
toxikaith: then he can learn to let other people in....
pumpkinseed17: cool
pumpkinseed17: heh heh - ok - didn't see all that
toxikaith: did i get it right?
pumpkinseed17: I guess my message is...
pumpkinseed17: freakin be open. & live in the love that comes from it...
toxikaith: well...yeah
pumpkinseed17: open and out there
toxikaith: i think you made that a little obvious
pumpkinseed17: ...and.....
toxikaith: and?
pumpkinseed17: our love for each other is a temporary fix for our holes....pluging each other cuz we dont love ourselves, or accept love from others....
pumpkinseed17: and dang, that aint what a relationship should be based on long term..
pumpkinseed17: tho it feels so great
toxikaith: yep....
pumpkinseed17: dang
pumpkinseed17: ...sumthin like that
toxikaith: why?
pumpkinseed17: cuz that aint gonna bring long term happiness...right?
pumpkinseed17: and a great relationship, I believe
pumpkinseed17: is 2 people complementing each other - having strengths and weaknesses the other doesn't have
pumpkinseed17: but the 2 people aiming for common goals
pumpkinseed17: the same direction in life
toxikaith: right
toxikaith: law of compensation
pumpkinseed17: 2 lonely people ....well they got the same weakness
pumpkinseed17: and if that's the basis, our goals can be completely different...but because "it feels so good", we can hold together...but never get anywhere
toxikaith: i agree
pumpkinseed17: and should anything happen to one of the 2 people....then the other feelz.....dead again
pumpkinseed17: I assume
toxikaith: like lovebirds
pumpkinseed17: a good relationship.... 2 people....very different....constantly challenging each other....growing...strengthening each other
pumpkinseed17: being each other's strength
toxikaith: awwwwwwww
toxikaith: that's good
pumpkinseed17: and by time they're gone.....yer more complete
toxikaith: yes....
toxikaith: growth and completion...the elements a relationship must not lack
pumpkinseed17: cool - I gotta save this chat session
pumpkinseed17: perhaps on my tabulas?
pumpkinseed17: heh heh
toxikaith: your call...
pumpkinseed17:
toxikaith: im fine with it
toxikaith: you know me....
pumpkinseed17: heh heh
toxikaith: i have nothing against posting stuff
toxikaith:
pumpkinseed17: for once in my life ....I was living in the moment....living...feeling....not thinking
pumpkinseed17: experiencing.....not rationalizing
toxikaith: good for you
toxikaith: im over those days already
toxikaith: im now rationalizing
pumpkinseed17: need balance
pumpkinseed17: both
pumpkinseed17: I just dived into it
pumpkinseed17: neither alone will get us what we want
toxikaith: its my turn to build my own walls to lock myself in
toxikaith: .........
toxikaith: i shall go now...i need to catch some rest
pumpkinseed17: me 2....been a pleasure!
pumpkinseed17: and I have dialup too
pumpkinseed17: I feel yer pain
pumpkinseed17:
toxikaith:
toxikaith: thanks!
toxikaith: bye now
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Currently Feeling: almost awake..g`nite! -_-
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