PumpkinSeed
I wrote part of this entry on 2'sday, sitting in a bathroom stall at my brother's job. Looks like I'll make it my 1 year Annaversary entry! Yup! one friggin year since my "Virgin Tabulas Entry"
It's kinda apprpriate as my annaversary entry....
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A few days ago, I finally found Vs.! I was giving it a few listens, then this song hit me again as I thought - dang - this is how I feel about my tabulas buddiez.....
Troubled souls Unite!
We got ourselves tonight!
I am fuel
you are friends
we got the means to make ammends
I am lost! I'm no Guide....but I'm by your side.
I-AM-RIGHT-BY-YOUR-SIDE!!!
Young lover I stand
It was their idea
I proved to be a man
Take my lucky hand
It was their idea
I proved to be a man
Will myself to find a home
a home within myself
We will find a way,
WE-WILL-FIND-OUR-PLACE!!
DROP THE LEASH
WE ARE YOUNG
DROP THE LEASH
WE ARE YOUNG
GET OUTTA' MY LUCKY FACE!
DROP THE LEASH
DROP THE LEASH
get outta' my...my....
DELIGHT!!!
DELIGHT IN OUR YOUTH!!!
I cranked it up, and put it on repeat as I took a nap in the car....
great tune. I hope to be able to scream in key like that someday soon!
What a great tune! Go Ed! I feel ya, bro!
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so what a year it's been.
who coulda imagined how much a freakin blog would affect my life?
who coulda imagined me impacting other people's lives through it as much as I have? I look forward to more.
Lately...as in for a buncha months, I've been spending too much time on Tabby....but so be it - It's a hellova lot better than my previous addiction, aye?
Lookin back at my my "Virgin Tabulas Entry", it looks like almost a "self-fulfilling prophesy" when I wrote stuff like,
"I'm on a journey - breaking open my shell - learning how to express myself, love myself, love others and get hurt! I'll do my best not to let this be another tool to avoid personal contact with others, but a tool for growth for me and for you! A place to exhibit my hidden abilities"
and in particular:
"Experience the removal of the shell with me!"
I don't think I had a CLUE what was in store for me. Over the past year, as I have been living out out what I wrote there, I had long forgotten what I had written! I almost wanna call it a coincidence! But it aint.
It was months after "removing the shell" that I looked back and saw that entry and thought "oh crap!"
I still struggle with my level of personal contact with others, but I'm finding that WHEN I do have that personal contact, it's a little more open & intimate....of a better quality thanx to stuff I've learned on Tabby.
I still struggle with luvin myself...but at least now I know what it is to love me - I've done it on and off over the past year. I've seen my loved one do it on and off, and realize how much it means to me...I've discovered what it means to her too for me to luv me...I now have a motivation for me to TAKE CARE every day.
I plan to exhibit more hidden abilities on and off tabby. I know I got a ton more. Stay tuned!
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sigh
Luv U guyz!
~Andrew Jacob Sahagian
**HUGS!!!**
Currently Listening to: Pearl Jam - Vs. - Leash
Currently Reading: Tabulas.com
Currently Watching:
Currently Feeling: Phileo
Whadduya feelin?
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