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Like a love without devotion, like a cloud without the rain; Like a heart without emotion, like a wound without the pain. Like a prayer without an answer, like a bird without a song; Like a hope without a future, like a night without the dawn. Without You, I am nothing; I am nothing without You; Only You can make something out of nothing; I am nothing without You. ~PAUL & RITA BALOCHE

January 13, 2005 , 02:12 AM

PumpkinSeed

my tranquilizer My thoughts race

my mind is restless

my heart swings

my soul cries

the possibilities flourish

I rationalize things one way one second

then I rationalize them the other way the next second

I yearn

I long

I wish

I don't know what I want

I try to figure out what's best

I refuse to suppress my feelings ever again

I fight to accept myself....my love

I say I'm okay - this is normal

I pray.

I remember what I've learned

I remember where I've been

I never want to go back

I decide to put me second again

I decide to love purely again....

I forgot how.

I'm in love.

the impossible seems so possible!

countless hours spent trying to figure you out - place you in a box

no such box exists

sanity fades....................

etc.

etc.

etc.

etc.

etc.

etc.

etc.

...and I check my email.

and with just a word from you

like a tranquilizer shot to my veins

all is at rest

all is at peace

Thank you, dear.

written: 2005-01-02 sun day
22:06

Currently Listening to: Pearl Jam - Long Road
Currently Reading: inbox
Currently Watching: for the next peep
Currently Feeling: elated
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