PumpkinSeed
PumSeed says: then when ya tell sumone aobut it, it just comes out in a few sentences as if you were summarizing a movie plot?
PumSeed says: as if...
PumSeed says: you had a total outsiders perspective available to you all along....inside yerself
PumSeed says: but never looked at it till ya had to talk about it?
PumSeed says: and it all seems....so simple?
PumSeed says: that's what happenz whenever I talk with my old pathways buddiez , giving them an update on what's been up in my life, and I mention ________.
PumSeed says: and I step back in awe
PumSeed says: wondering what I just said
PumSeed says: could it all have been that simple?
PumSeed says: and when I do that....
PumSeed says: the choices I struggled with for weeks in tears
PumSeed says: seem so simple and obvious
PumSeed says: so
PumSeed says: cold
PumSeed says: it's weird
PumSeed says: iz that clarity?
PumSeed says: iz that clarity or ignorance?
PumSeed says: is it heinsight, or disconnection?
PumSeed says: or
PumSeed says: is it trying to act/be cool in front of those who expect the best from you?
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PumSeed says: and it seems so....almost silly
PumSeed says: the depth of my passion and love.....squished into a silly _______ story
PumSeed says: bleh
PumSeed says:
PumSeed says: werid
PumSeed says: and I feel no emotion when tellig it
PumSeed says: i say ______
PumSeed says: but not even feeling it
PumSeed says: I'm outta my zone
PumSeed says: hmm
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PumSeed says: the way I tell the story....
PumSeed says: usually comes to a "conclusion"
PumSeed says: ...
PumSeed says: leaving little to say
PumSeed says: sounding like I got it all figured out
PumSeed says: weird
PumSeed's friend says: but the truth is everything is all mixed up still
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PumSeed says: we talk a lot about concepts, and god and stuff
PumSeed says: but when it comes to my storiez of struggles or _____- it's just presented in this nutshell
PumSeed says: I once wrote to kaith....
PumSeed says: that sometimes we need a friend to distract us till we can step back and see the big picture
PumSeed says: I think when I'm there - in those moments - I'm seeing the big picture
PumSeed says: and yeah - it aint so bad
PumSeed says: God is in controll, and I'm on track
PumSeed says: simple
PumSeed says: I make mistakes, but it's all good - I learn - I move on and take more steps
PumSeed says: simple
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PumSeed says: is it any more complicated ?
PumSeed says: really.
PumSeed says: or....do we let feelings get in the way of simple judgement?
PumSeed says: I've lived most my life w/o feeling
PumSeed says: I'm committed never to go back
PumSeed says: but I miss that,...simplicity
PumSeed says: ...when everythign was defined
PumSeed says: but I wasn't living then
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