January 23, 2005 , 06:46 PM Ang pag-ibig

PumpkinSeed

KAITH, this one's for you...
Kaith says:
i also read your latest posts. and i agree that all you need is to bridge the distance. but being far or near is not really the basis of what you're feeling for each other. you just have to work it out with _____. and i hope she's willing to work it out with you. throwing love away just like that is such a waste.


I belive in soul-mates.

I belive in love at first sight.

I also belive everyone is lovable.

I believe it's possible to fall in love with anyone.

I belive just because I have a soul-mate doesn't mean I'll end up with her.

I may do something unwise to keep us apart....like holding onto someone when I'm not sure if their mine....or the one meant to be mine.

I believe most broken "committed" relationships were probably "meant to work out", but they gave up on what it takes to actively love.

I also belive EVERY "committed" relationship, whether they were origionally "meant to be" or not, CAN, and SHOULD do EVERYTHING POSSIBLE to make it work out!


I belive in holding a high standard for a mate....

I also belive when you love someone, those standards are meaningless.

that's where wisdom and judgement are needed.

Love may be a decision, but usually it's subconcious....it doesn't act based on wisdom, but on many other factors. (attraction, intuition, holes filled, feeling needed, etc, etc.)

I'm learning to listen to and trust my intuition.

I'm learning to stop DISMISSING what I feel or sence, and instead work to UNDERSTAND it, THEN apply wisdom, and LASTLY POSSIBLY Judgement to it.

I think it's a bad idea to make big decisions based on feelings....even love.(!)

But rather because I love I will do my best to follow wisdom. Because in the long run, wisdom creates the best results. NOT my passions and desires, intuition, or anything else.


I say all that to say....I won't "throw my love away", and I pray I never stop feeling, or become insensitive to what my intuition is, and has been revealing.

but, for now, I know I must move on. Now isn't the time to "work it out" when I have no certainty this is "the one" or the time to be "working it out".

Is that just an excuse for me to not take the risks and not make the effort to "make it work out"???

Not this time.

I pray for the courage and strength to do what it takes to "make it work out"....when I'm with "the one".

Wisdom tells me, for now, to move on, and be available to embrace my present and future.

It's time I focus to take care of me.


Now regarding, "it's not up to us and it never was".....well, I know, at least in my life, Andrew Jacob Sahagian's life, there's a plan, and a person set for me, and I have to be careful not to do anything that would keep me out of that plan or from that person.

AS I MOVE FORWARD in my living, I'm begining to learn the plan I had never known before (though it does go along with what my heart and intution had always told me)

and I know now for certain there is someone being prepared for me. My job is to prepare for her.

=)

~Luv Seed


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