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Like a love without devotion, like a cloud without the rain; Like a heart without emotion, like a wound without the pain. Like a prayer without an answer, like a bird without a song; Like a hope without a future, like a night without the dawn. Without You, I am nothing; I am nothing without You; Only You can make something out of nothing; I am nothing without You. ~PAUL & RITA BALOCHE

August 15, 2005 , 10:54 PM inside the outside

PumpkinSeed

akin 2005-07-20, wednesday

Laying in bed to rest, some words began to pop into my head, and I thought to myself that they sounded like lyrix, afraid that the words were unacceptable, so I went to the one place where I'm free to explore whatever pops into my head w/o judgement....My intuition Jounal. So I closed my eyes and typed 2 songs on Minipute.

the 2nd one was lost because of a pop-up.

but the first one was recorded.

I sorta typed all this w/o thinking. It was just a flowing of words....

the music sounded inspired by the Staind song w. the video of the kid who wished for his father to give attention

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lying here
state to state war within
head to head

leave me out
take it in
don't feel safe
let it begin

I don't understand where you've been
I play this real loud hopeing to feel it
I think of what it was like for you growing up
but what comes inside me is all screwed up

so is this what it's like to live and be you?
is this why you cry and why you screw????

tell me what it's like to be you!!!!
I don't get it and I think I don't want toooo.

it sux to be living in your shoes
I thank God for the life I've been given.
how can you react in any other way?
my God forgive me for judging you that way!

help me to see you
help me to find
help me to reach out
to find what's not mine.

help me to feel you
help me to see

help me to find out what it's like to be me if I were you.

let it out
let me in
deep inside
don't hide the sins

set it fee
coming clean
help to hate
hate to clean.

show me
what it's like to spend a day in your shoes
tell me
how it feels to see the crap I do
tell me
let me know of the pain and the recluse
hear me
give me a chance and I'll show you my side too

let me
let me in
feel me
feel my sin
read me
we're all akin
teach me
start again,

Currently Listening to: Rutherford crickets
Currently Reading: I got an e-mail to read and reply to :)
Currently Watching: SpongeBob Hemp Pants
Currently Feeling: tapped
Whadduya feelin?