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Like a love without devotion, like a cloud without the rain; Like a heart without emotion, like a wound without the pain. Like a prayer without an answer, like a bird without a song; Like a hope without a future, like a night without the dawn. Without You, I am nothing; I am nothing without You; Only You can make something out of nothing; I am nothing without You. ~PAUL & RITA BALOCHE

April 28, 2006 , 10:48 PM inside the outside

PumpkinSeed

a perfect cycle today, I've been less than perfect.

and I thot of tabby..........and how I don't like to be less than perfect here.

not only do I want you to love accept and like me.....I guess I'm still the friggin pharisee who wants to be seen as holy.

But tabby is the place where I'm not supposed to be an actor anymore......where I'm supposed to play myself.

so I just want to avoid it and not post any entries here.

I think of how silly this entry must be to anyone else reading it - because - yeah - of course everyone knows I'm not perfect cuz it's friggin impossible.

but I like to play myself as "perfect" in at least some areas of life.....and THANK GOD, somedays I am! Some weeks, and months I am!

but today, I've been less than perfect.

.....and I thot I'd journal anyway

Currently Listening to: Twila Paris - Perenial
Currently Reading: 1998 car reviews (Rivierra, Aurora, Montecarlo, Eldorado, etc.)
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Currently Feeling: tempted...human
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