Entries in category "Observations"
October 16, 2011 , 12:53 AM Observations
PumpkinSeed
Welcomed into Your presence
I am baffled by Your Grace.
I know You know what I've been all about.
Dabbling in sin. Walking the line. Staining my soul.
Hardening my heart. Desecrating Your throne.
Yet You still call for me!
Your love is unending.
Redemption taken hold of me.
So, humbly I enter.
Scared to take another step.
Wash me in Your fountain
So that I may see Your face.
And not be consumed.
Holy art Thou, dear Lord.
Amazing is all that You are
Most amazing is Your love for me.
That You died for me.
That I may be set free.
To follow You faithfully.
To commune for eternity.
Wrapped in Your wings.
Held in the palm of Your hand.
The hairs on my head counted.
My tear drops in Your bottle.
You've been waiting for the day
When I'll finally turn away
From all that leads astray
To hold your hand, trust, and obey.
Currently Listening to: Fernando Ortega - Hymns and Meditations
Currently Reading: Richard Dawkins - The God Delusion
Currently Watching: Battery Meter: "19min (11%) Remaining"
Currently Feeling: somber
Whadduya feelin?
August 26, 2006 , 02:38 AM Observations
PumpkinSeed
who wants to hold a real conversation of giving and recieving?
I may be quick to call someone a friend.....
......but I'm sure glad for the bunch od real ones that I have =)
Currently Listening to: State v. Darryl Ways Grand Jury
Currently Reading: State v. Darryl Ways Grand Jury
Currently Watching: my buddy lists
Currently Feeling: realism
Whadduya feelin?
April 12, 2006 , 01:33 AM Observations
PumpkinSeed
, and being chilly with a soar throat and gunked up passageways, I decide to inhale the steam...
yuck!smelled like
Silly of me to expect H2O from my faucet! Forgot it's H2ClFO
=)
so where have I dissapeared to the past few months?? I've been spending most my online "free time" in the MySpace world.
miss me here?
care to Join me there?
Currently Listening to: tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick
Currently Reading: Acts 12 & James 4
Currently Watching: Terami's vid I downloaded
Currently Feeling: silent
Whadduya feelin?
February 5, 2006 , 08:05 PM Observations
PumpkinSeed
Jesus lived.
Jesus died.
500+ testified seeing him alive after his death.
Cowards who knew him became bold after he disapeared.
They sacrifieced their lives for this truth.
This truth that others didn't believe......
the cowards had no ability to be cowards anymore. You can't be a coward to live for a lie when the truth is evident in your soul. The coward will die for his truth rather than live for the lie if living for the lie would show to others that maybe the truth isn't really that true.
The coward will live for the truth that they didn't have the ability to lie for to live. The coward will die. The coward will live.
Opposition of truth transforms a coward into a immovable rock.
some would question........were they a coward? Leaning on a belief as a "crutch"?
or is the one calling it a "cruth" using that "crutch calling" as their personal cruth to avoid looking at the truth?
If I call it a crutch, I can remain a coward and call myself strong by not looking at my need to belive in a truth that may demand me to be more than a coward.
The truth is........
the truth is I may feel like a coward..............but don't mess with my truth or I might just have to step up.
God help me.
be my glory and my strength.
You are not my crutch. You are the strength I have yet to grasp.
I need Your strength.............but I don't know my need because I'm still living as a coward.
step
by
step
by
step
by
step
by
step...
what step would You have me take today? Somehow I think it'll be "forward".
Maybe I need a shove.
Currently Listening to: Rebecca St. James - Come Quickly Lord
Currently Reading: 2nd Lettre to Timothy
Currently Watching: Judgement (it's a film)
Currently Feeling: restful
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January 14, 2006 , 04:40 PM Observations
PumpkinSeed
You see a young dude - A dude who keeps to himself. A dude who loves to tap things, look down, and gravitate towards that piano over there.
Every word out of his mouth is out of the ordinary. And what's this "usta" thing he keeps talking about? He seems to keep busy with little tasks, not mingling much, and I rarely see him with friends, but he can't be all that bad, he's always doing little favors for people.
When he speaks in reply to questions, it's usually respectful and short.......but he always throws something odd into what he says. And it seems the more he talks, the odder things get. What's he talking about? Where's he coming from?
Never had a girlfriend, never asked a girl to dance, and what does he mean by "physically" when we ask him if he's a virgin?
He says he's nocturnal, and only works part time. What's he doing with his life? Would I want to model after this youth leader? And why does he always call us "Youph"? Huh?
He laughs and looks at us in surprise when we say we don't know Polish. What's up with this kid and his "usta"??
He's different. Different than the other youth leaders. Well, frankly, he usually acts like he's one of us, just following along with what the other leaders are saying. Does he think he's still a teenager? What is he, 24? Shouldn't he have been on a date by now? Have a full time job and stuff? Maybe he just has no confidence. I don't think he's gay.
Sometimes I catch him singing something weird I've never heard before...usually singing to himself, but then sometimes he'll sing and dance some silly song. I don't get it.
Sometimes he'll talk about emotions he's felt - but I don't know - I've never actually seen him show that he was feeling any. It's like he maintains this "can't touch this" generally positive attitude. Doesn't he ever get pissed? Depressed? Affectionate? Frustrated? All he usually talks about is whether he's feeling tired or awake.
Sometimes I feel bad, like when I see him try to lead a lesson. He gets all nervous and stutters and stuff. It's like he's really smart, but thinks he doesn't know what he's doing, so I'll admit sometimes he doesn't exactly hold our attention, and well - it's like he struggles so much to try to get it back, but he doesn't speak up like the other leaders so sometimes we'll just continue talking or whatever. I know it's wrong, but.....well I try to pay attention.
The other day I logged into MySpace and I saw he gave me a friend request. I mean I guess that's okay, but shouldn't he be bothering with friends his own age? Did you see that freaky snow cone dude he drew? And even some of the songs on his MySpace can be a little spooky at times. Andrew can seem a bit creepy with the weird things he says and does, but I don't think he has any bad intentions. Just weird.
What do you see?
Currently Listening to: Dance Mix 1997
Currently Reading: 1st Lettre to Timmy
Currently Watching: the youph
Currently Feeling: seen....externally
Whadduya feelin?
November 26, 2005 , 12:51 AM Observations
PumpkinSeed
Process: I will collect yellow things which will be mostly litter and other refuse of our urban environment, on walks. I will collect them as I go about the normal business of my life.
Process: I am accumulating all plastic shopping bags left on the street that I encounter each time I go outside. A record is being kept of how many bags are accumulated each day for the course of the project year.
Process: I will visit this person in her apartment to help clear out all that she has been accumulating for years. I will collect some of the items we would otherwise discard and save them as documents of her accumulation. I will select things that are most striking by the quantity of the objects or by the nature of the objects themselves and their visual appeal...
...The process of sifting through the clutter is like an archeological excavation...
I came across this site and thot to share it. I found some of the projects quite interesting. I like the one with the "Discarded Dreams" (mattreses), and think the one with the Candle Wax will be worth following month to month!"
I myself will be making a contribution toward the AOL CD's accumulation! I think I have over 200!
Currently Listening to: my usta sounds better today than last week =)
Currently Reading: AJS-PPL Juno inbox
Currently Watching: things accumulate and deaccumulate
Currently Feeling: chilli
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November 5, 2005 , 02:19 AM Observations
PumpkinSeed
I'm such a puyatero.
Currently Listening to: Steven Curtis Chapman - Speachless
Currently Reading: 95 Thesis (Martin Luthor)
Currently Watching: my CD Collection grow =)
Currently Feeling: ready for beddy
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November 1, 2005 , 09:23 PM Observations
PumpkinSeed
Currently Listening to: myspace.com/goot
Currently Reading: eHow to Wash Egg off a Car
Currently Watching: eBaumsWorld.com
Currently Feeling: post & pre-disciplined
Whadduya feelin?
