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Like a love without devotion, like a cloud without the rain; Like a heart without emotion, like a wound without the pain. Like a prayer without an answer, like a bird without a song; Like a hope without a future, like a night without the dawn. Without You, I am nothing; I am nothing without You; Only You can make something out of nothing; I am nothing without You. ~PAUL & RITA BALOCHE

October 8, 2004 , 10:13 PM favorite Introspections, Ang pag-ibig

PumpkinSeed

Blinded by love "leaving the one he loves for the comfort of the one who sees."

...for the one who loves him...
cares
adores
watches
listens
dreams
FEELS
UNDERSTANDS
comforts
touches
cherishes
encourages
inspires

the one I feel known by.

the one who fills my holes.

the one whom I wish to fill.

the one as lonely as me.

"No one understands me!" "no one ever has"

He learns otherwise.

you met my emotional needs...

guided me to restore my vision of my future...not alone!

You nourished me...

"You're my vitamins because I'm like you."

But when I'm in it, how can I dicipher a friend from a mate?

I'm freakin emotinoally completed!!

recieving what I've never accepted before from anyone else...because I know you understand me....and I know you're love is genunie.

you selflessly gave to me.

and I accepted it, and held on for dear life.

and I tested you.

prooved to myself that your love is unconditional.

dang! It's real It's freakin real.

You're an amazing woman.

I want to tell you to NEVER settle for a man who can't see and appreicate that......but what does it take for a man to see and appreciate you? ALL of you.

.........................................................

Others have seen and pointed out the AMAZING ME before...but I didn't believe them cuz I didn't see it in myself.

The only reason I believed she didn't know I existed...is cuz I hadn't been myself arround her.

The only reason I couldn't accept that you all love and care about me...is cuz I knew you never knew the full me....because I've been afraid to show you all who I really am. What I'm really about.

I've been hearing for months how I have to let people in.

THAT AINT IT!

I HAVE TO BE LET OUT!!!

As I put myself out, others come in:

As I show myself to others....only then can I accept/believe their love for me.

As I give myself to others...only then can I feel them in me.

Thank you, Cai!

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As I'm out there....

many won't understand me.
some may hate, & despise me.
some may mock me....make "fun" of me.
some may take advantage of me.
some may dismiss me.
some may just label me as "one of them"

but ya know what?

some WILL love and adore me, and I'll freakin believe them!

you've proven that to me.

and it's worth everything.

you're love is worth everything.

I love you.

VIDA!

***Driving to my J.O.B.
heading east on Rt. 46
in the middle lane
as PorQy squeaks at everyone in the left lane***

Thanx Theo!

Love you.

~seed

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