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Like a love without devotion, like a cloud without the rain; Like a heart without emotion, like a wound without the pain. Like a prayer without an answer, like a bird without a song; Like a hope without a future, like a night without the dawn. Without You, I am nothing; I am nothing without You; Only You can make something out of nothing; I am nothing without You. ~PAUL & RITA BALOCHE

June 28, 2005 , 01:37 PM Ang pag-ibig, inside the outside

PumpkinSeed

Day 180 each day you don't hear from me is a day I've remained bottled up.

each moment I'm not crying is a moment I'm trying to fool myself.

each smile and laugh is a gift from my friends who can distract me enough to enjoy my life

each and every day you're thought of somehow in some way.

nearly each and every tear that has welled up is for you and you alone.

I want to be strong for you.

but I also want to break down and cry on you.

God, I love you, and wish you well.

Ever greatful for you

but never enough from you.

not knowing the right things to say

reverting back to the truths that stand outside of any emo feeling, whether "up" or "down":

I love you.

blinded by emos and assumptions and wishes, I pray we never loose the reality that we're friends...

Forever Friends

anything U need in life - I'm there to do my best for you! because no matter how I may feel - I won't forget that I truely love you.

I may never be yer best friend
I may never achieve to be yer parter in any area of life

but dang, I'm here for you and always wishing for you to be MY partner in SOME area.

I love you.

and yes - somehow, I still need you!

iz it merely "filling my holes" when the hole IS you?! ...when the hole was made molded as in impression of you?!

this aint a "God-shaped hole"
it aint my "personal needs" hole

it's friggin you, dear.

sumthin inside me still needs you.

and yeah - yer still there/here for me - still filling that hole

but dang it wishes you to go deeper and fill it all the way.

and of course I'm choked up again - holdin back the gusher.

yay love! :')

...and seeds of doubt remain in my mind....doubting we'll hug someday....or doubting I can be real with you in that moment we meet.....afraid for one reason or another I'll hold myself back

...hold myself back from crying...

...hold myself back from my 1 kiss.

...afraid I'll let you go without saying or showing "I love you." as much as I do.

each day, for you, I pray.

each day I pray we truely ingatz.

Currently Listening to: Wherever You Are
Currently Reading: Intuition.pwd
Currently Watching: dreams replay
Currently Feeling: emoseed
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